I’ve had a very stressful week this past week, and besides the beautiful, wonderful Anna, my knitting projects are helping keep me sane. As I mentioned in my last Yarn Along post, I had a new job offer on the table that I was very excited about.
After a little contract negotiation, the offer started not looking as sweet as it had. When I told my current boss that I had an offer that I was planning to accept, he surprised me by asking, “What can I do to convince you to stay?”
Now to many people, this looks like a great situation – a good job offer on the table, and a current employer that wants you to stay bad enough that they’re willing to improve your current situation. So what’s the problem?
Well, I think most of my anxiety stems from my need to constantly keep everyone happy. In this situation, someone loses, either my current employer or the new guys. In addition, as it looks more and more like I’ll stay on with my current company, I feel like I’ve wasted the other company’s time. On top of that, I have gotten to know the new company’s CEO on a personal level and I do really like her. I just don’t know if her offer is going to work out.
All of these factors, and probably a lot more that I’m not aware of, have added up to give me a record level of anxiety about the choice. As of the time of writing, I still have not made a concrete decision. I had a tension headache all weekend and I’m having trouble sleeping. I have to make a decision today, though, and I think I’ve more or less got my mind made up. The hard part will be saying “no” to someone. Why is it always so hard to say no?
In any case, I’ve been knitting through all this and it has helped tremendously, as it always does with anxious situations. I finished the Simple Baby Pullover for Brianna’s niece, buttons and all. I also finished the Earflap Hat for her, in matching yarn. The hat came out a little big, but that’s the great thing about knitting for babies – they’ll definitely grow into anything you accidentally make a bit too big.
I’ve now gotten started on Leaves or Not for Brianna’s nephew. It’s a more complex knit than I was expecting, but the directions are relatively clear and I think I’m doing alright. It was my first time trying the provisional cast on method and once I got the hang of it, it wasn’t hard at all. Also did I mention that this yarn is SO SOFT AND SQUISHY?? I love it. It’s Spud & Chloe Sweater yarn and I want a humongous sweater made of it. Maybe someday…